Tumblring when i saw photos of happy kids doing happy stuffs
made me think of a poem i read in my secondary literature book, Nothing Gold Can Stay. i only roughly remember the first line as Nature first hue goes and something something. Strikes me particularly hard because everything you once hold dear to your heart, things, people will never stay. people grow old and die. things age and rot or spoil. eventually you will almost always grow out of things you once hold dear to you.
Something even more obvious in Singapore where places and things gets replaced with the speed of light. blink of an eyes and everything will be gone. And when its goes there will be hordes of people acting like Oh i build that places with my sweat and links to my heart i will die without it kind of shit. meh. i dont see you trying to preserve it before the government decided its fate.
its like when big names die then you will see all sorts of oh my god what a pity oh my god this oh my god that. especially in the case of Michael Jackson. before death he is a freak a paedophile and bad father and all sort of crap. after death he suddenly sheds all criticism and became the music industry never dying legend. like wtf.
oh man out of topic. i dont even know what i am talking about. rawr.
conclusion of that day: i am so indifferent about life i dont give a damm shit about anything. which is kind of sad actually.
i used to think that i am just indifferent about some things. gradually i realise i am indifferent about too many things. and it became that i am indifferent about life itself. i have never watch apple of my eye and have no intention of watching. i have never watched the kony 2012 video either and i really cant be bothered. i care so much about what people think of me that i evolved to not bother anymore.
time to find something to be passionate about. to find some meaning in me using the earth resources