the rock and the water

i am way too stubborn for my own good.

when something happens clashes with what i believe in, i will absolutely refuse to budge. no matter how i am being treated i will refuse to budge. because of what i think is right.

like for instance the last time i hid the computer wire and the laptop charger, my mom was hitting me repeatedly to force me to take them out. i told her she can hit me to death but i wouldnt take them out. because i feel that the root of the problem lies in not me wanting to pick a fight, but in essence how my brother treats me as a sister, not simply just another human being in the house. the problem we had would not be solved with my mother's totalitarian interference. she thinks that by making us feel pain she can make us do what she wants. but as people grow, its starts to be more of a mental thing rather than physical thing. like words will hurt more and hurt longer compared to a good tight slap. the thicker our skin got the more fragile we get on the inside, or at least for some people. thats why teenagers rely more on their friends, because they understands. parents simply assumed that they were correct, or forces it such that they are correct.


i am very stubborn. way stubborn than you see me to be. i can be easy on anything else, but not on the thing i believe in.

Trust

i was talking about this issue with headie the other day when we went out for dinner. at skinny pizza where we gorge ourselves silly with a huge chunk of mash potato, truffle fries and awesome meatball pizza.

so, its actually pretty amazing for me to realize that i am being trusted by people. because i dont fancy myself as someone who could be trusted. i mean, its hard for people to refrain from gossiping, and sharing a secret that only you know makes you feel all important and superior, which makes it hard to stop.

but i am pretty proud of myself once again. like stopping myself from talking about other people's relationship details. not like i know much, or that what i know is considered a secret or sort, but still, the act will say lots of my personality,right? hahaa.

trying to sculpture my character into some fixed shape. ughh. i will be a honorable person. sheeshh. ^^

Life is made up of boredom

if i think that some actions makes one a hypocrite, but at the same time wishing that i could do the same, makes me a even more filthy hypocrite, right?

but its a essential for the future. so how? ><

and nope jieying its not being sarcastic. hahaa really being fascinated. how long can you sustain your blog? ^^

A little surprise for the day

i am spending a majority of my time now on a secret project. secret because no one else knows about it. like, duh i know. but i am really happy with the results so far, and i am in high anticipation of the end product.

Life is boring. Other than working i have been cooping at home doing nothing and wasting time. ot even doing my uni stuff. ughh i really hate myself.

okay, i admit. i have nothing to talk about. BOO! i am blogging because i was so, erm, fascinated by jy's new blog. ^^

went for medical check up today! i felt so violated sobs. hahaa apparently i am in good health, except that i have no idea of the x-rays result. and one bad news is that i am 178cm tall now.

*restrain urge to point middle finger*

ughh ughh ughhhh! i am so pissed off. Why in the world am i still growing?! oh fine it may be the discrepancy between human and machine but why cant it decrease? like it could be 177 previously, then 176 now. ugh ugh ugh disgusting. i am disgusted by myself. fahh.

cant wait to move into hall. excited max!

Green Lantern is a frraking comedy

I laughed through the whole movie. seriously. everything was just funny or ridiculous or hilarious. oh my god good laughters. healthy for life. ^^

and i just woke up. not like just just, but around just. HAHAA i cant believe my eyes when the clocks shows 1:12 when i opened my eyes. -.- and i am pretty hungry now but lazy to go buy something.

predicting another wasted day ughh.