Fell sick. saw a not very trustworthy doctor who could not even accurately tell me what my illness was. All he could say was: erm there is some sort of virus inside blah blah blah. Sigh. But from violent and non-ending vomiting to able to keep food down its a wonderful progress already. Not good to be sick :(
So while I was sick I thought about some things. For my 20, I thought it would be good for me to show Gratitude. Give thanks to people around me. For staying through till now, for everything they have given me. So I wrote a letter to my parents. Which I have yet to give them, and for that I am glad. The content I wrote was so exceeding immature. Saying rubbish like, oh I am still learning to be a good daughter and please be patient. What kind of rubbish. My parents are aging. They are 30 and approximately 40 years older than me respectively. When I am 30 they will be 60 and 70. Still a nice age for me to take them around the world. That is my aim. But I should be a good daughter already. Not still learning to be. I thought being 20 was a major change. I kind of change my attitude towards my parent. Its heartbreaking seeing and hearing them speak out their body pains. And yet still have to work to support us. Reason 1 why I am so actively taking up tuition. To reduce burden.
Childish. And maturity. Seems to come together.
