Stars. luminous cosmic body.

How do i shine among the stars?

*White Dwarf Stars in the milky way

Today the principal was giving some crap talk about how we should work hard for As, and went on to show us the horrendous local university admission criteria.

As if i am not stressed enough already. I was thinking to myself this morning about how i can pull my chem and bio grades, , which are sinking at the U grade now, to at least a D by BT2.

Sound impossible. i totally agree.

and i am thinking of retaining, but i do not have the courage to do so. It will mean giving up everything i have now and restarting all over again, and i cannot promise myself to really work hard for the repeating year, blah blah.

All the thoughts i have now are not exactly comforting. but i guess they are what i need to pave my pathway to A levels. And to get into the Science Faculty.

So first thing first, to change my mindset, of always thinking that external stress will only make me collapse and give up, because i do not have the initiative to stress myself.

gah i sound so promising. Oh for A level i will work hard. exactly the same before O. And see what comes out? gah.

And, i am supposed to be doing GP now. What are our beliefs about science and technology? bloody hell. 500 words. And my GP teacher is a 'smart' 'genius' 'happy', go decipher. It very easy. oh i absolutely 'adores' him.

By the way, i got a B for PW. no A in S12. fabulous. wonderful. If you are a O student and thinking of coming SA. i will, gently remind you that, some things are not what they seems to be. yeah, maybe it looks perfect. but the pretty facade will fade almost immediately after you gain more understanding and familiarity with it.

If you can see, my language in posting is getting more and more 'formal'. IN the sense that i try to use less short-form and play around slightly with words. So PLEASE correct me in any mistake. I need to improve my GP. Partly because i want it to improve, and partly because i want to shove my A graded A level result (a photocopied one) up the stupid idiotic gay mutt's backside, before stuffing his disgusting face down the rubbish bin and slamming the lid.

Just the thought of it makes me feel good. Alrightly then, off to my GP! ^^

GAH!

Got back most of my results, Just have to say how proud i am of myself. Can't understand why i am so smart. sigh. some people just gets it all i guess?

10 more weeks to BT2! I promised to chiong and pia. definitely not going to get the same results as BT1. MUST NOT.

blogging for the sake of blogging. 'cause there really isn't much stuff to talk about.


OH. would your just, for god sake, think about US for a minute? everything is about you you you and you. we've mentioned it so many times and what your do is to dismiss it. How would U feel if we do this to you? Can't you be more considerate? One and a half years and we said nothing. So you became complacent and only knows how to think about yourself? please! If we do anything in the future don't blame us. U, the both of you, forced us to. It for the sake of our friendship that we said nothing in front of your. so for THE SAKE of our friendship let us have our way once, can't you do it? U act like the most selfish person in the world. and still dare to say that we are best friends. YOU are NOT behaving like a best friend. More like a self-centered spoilt kid. 'cause all you kn0w how to say is me me me me me me and me.

This is for yx. Ur tm dream. hahaa.

Got back chem for BT1. as expected, a big fat U. 20% nia. I am so bloody proud of myself. Bio MCQ got 19/30. considered lousy bah. Not expecting anything, and prepared to go to the extra remedial lessons le. >.<

Getting back results is awful. Going for Mr Pampers lessons is awful too. New topics are irritating and mind-draining. haha actually they are just difficult.

I think i will be super grateful if some mad guy just runs down the street and shoot me in the brain. Then i can die immediately without any pain (i think, can't be the heart right) but my organs still can be donated. provided that they are healthy, which i sincerely doubt so. hee.

Haiz. so tired that i think i will be fainting anytime (just kidding) I swear! promise! cross fingers that i will definitely sleep by 10pm today.

Off to watch dramas! kekes. ^^

GAH!

wad a lovely word.


BT today. Econs was, erh, okay i guess? Largely crapped through the questions. Plenty of 4marks qns set purposely to kill us. Gr. Lost 8marks. But hopefully they can be trade over by my essay. keke.

Bio is the love. <3 totally fabulous. Love it to the max. Woah. I am going to treat everyone sakae sushi if i pass. See how optimistic i am? totally confident of passing.

Chem tmr. going to float through and crapped every single rubbish present in my head. useless head. GAH!

2 more days to forever. I want my break! ^^

delightful mood. anticipating the outing.


oh btw i was just kiddg about the treat. Just kidding.

WOO IT RAINED SO HARD TODAY!!

straight pouring from the morning. HAHA. exaggerated but oh wadever! the feeling is so great! cool air excellent weather no sun no pe no stuffy classroom! best day ever since like months ago. Yeah its great because our reservoir has shockingly low level of water, the weather is stuffy and hot, the forests (or big bushes) at tampines are burning merrily causing smok around the area BUT the best part about raining is actually mostly because I LOVE THE RAIN!

muahaha~ typical example of a selfish apathetic Singaporean youth. heck la. I am kind to most people, including strangers who are nice to me. ^^ and only evil and mean when it comes to people that i dislike. (though i don't know why i dislike them. gah)

GP BT is round the corner, jus a few steps away but I did not study any single thing that is related to GP. having the " also going to fail liao study for what?" mentality. teehee.

having M.T as GP tutor now (temporary, heard that A.T fractured one of her body part), very scary, slightly random, and having a similar characteristic that all GP teacher possesses, which is being boring (Claim). How do i prove my point? I was nodding off today during GP while he was going on and on about doing AQ (Support). Of course, it could be argued that my example cum support is jus an individual experience and could be classified as 'freak incident', but how do you explain jy and qx having the same experience as me? So i concluded that my support is valid and absolutely convincing. ^^v

Just kidding. He was quite good. provided alot of points and tips that is typical of how anyone would tell you about doing AQ well. But since its about doing AQ well i supposed it has to be the same. nevertheless, i took down alot of notes, tried to understand what he was talking about while trying my best not to fall asleep. (I am a good and obedient student) I hoped i really took in what he had said because i am very sure that i spaced out for one moment while he was talking about pulling different points from different authors and compare contrast them. (taken from chelsea's notes) totally spaced out while looking at him.

But u cannot blame me for spacing out because during a "Know more about your learning style" workshop during secondary school, we got to know about our learning style. I got VKA. which means that i uses visual and kinesthetic more that audio. SO i learn better by seeing and doing. VKA spaces out during long talks (i saved the spacing out part and went straight to sleep, but this is true information from the course and i don't know why i remembered it till now) cannot remember audio instruction well. (i crapped this out but this absolutely true, u have to write down to remind me. if not i will forget about it after like... 5 min?) find it hard to sit still for long hours as they are distracted by their needs for exploration (from the net and applies to me as well) and so on and so forth. So i think that pretty much explains why i love practicals and good lecturers. they make lessons less boring and less sleep-inducing.

and i just realized that i have diverted long from what i was originally saying. But the main point is, yeah hoped i absorbed what M.T said and hopefully i can use it in the exams. Nice and simple.

most amazingly i am no longer addicted to facebook. from "must go everyday" to "go when i m free". gives me much more time to do my own stuff, like daydreaming about getting straight As for A level and reading storybooks. HAH!!

from this blog post, and using your powerful inferring skills, i bet you can infer my present mood.

YEAP. bored but happy. thats why i am crapping myself out, trying my best to write in proper English and not commit any grammar mistakes.

but i bet i committed alot of grammar mistakes and my language sucks. totally. blah gah mah. i cannot even spell grammar properly. thank god blogger has a word check. if not i will be throwing my face while blogging and people will be laughing their ass off reading my ridiculous spellings.


and now wicked is the new word of the day