Sometimes i tink i m too blessed for my own good. till the very point that i forgot to be grateful for everyone that is beside me and giving me the reason to continue to work hard for life. Lost in the wonderful fairytale i spun to myself that this is going to last till forever. So when reality hits me, the magnitude of the shock is jus, indescribable. And that old weakling crouch deep beneath quietly crawls out and pushes everything else back inside me. So the cheerfulness and happy-go-lucky character and optimism dat masked me for wad seems like eternity slips off and somehow nothing else is right. I m too hyper now, its irritating and i m too low later, its still irritating. scolding ppl for wad i thought is right of me and regretting a second later. everything dat i display and say, nothing is processed through my useless brain. Curious abt plenty of things but never had the nerve to ask. treading on ice even wif my 'best friends', not knowing if acting like this is right, or jus being myself would be fine. knowing that i m unlike but still acting like the whole world is my best friend. i hate to mask myself but, everyone demands smth frm ppl beside them. Dat facade i build upon myself is the huiying dat they are familiar and can befriend. so wad abt the me dat is jus me and nothing else? the present huiying is build from past experiences of betrayal and hurt. modelled after ppl who are well-liked and sociable.

So is it jus me? or me? how would u react if a mouldy depressed heck-cared selfish inconsiderate huiying replace the happy cheerful smiling optimistic huiying as the huiying u know? and in actual fact her acting is so good that nobody can see the real her? would u still be her friend? yeah like how u are treating her now? if its me, i wouldn't. I dun like the present huiying but i dun wan the past huiying oso. too weak and pushy and gullible. but if i change myself, wad can i change to? jus another model of someone else who is likeable and cheerful and seems to never worry abt anything because of her capability and ability.

I hate to emo here. its supposed to be a happy blog.

WHEE outing wif pearlyn and lynn was fun~!

Went to watch "Valentine's Day"at Lido Orchard. It was very funny! Blah blah blah. Finally got to watch it after like, erm, weeks after. Hee. Had a great time listening to their super hilarious Red-cross experience while finally eatg mcspicy. ^v^ happy happy

And Cross country was, Hot. Stuffy. Boring. Blah. Spammed pics as usual and i m dreadg the time when i have to delete ugly and pick out better ones. Gah! And stll hav to edit pic for Zoom In. Gah Gah Gah.

Shall pon computer till BT is over. >.<

Oh, did i mention abt my wonderful teachers?

I tink not.

first there is my gpap teacher. She is SO wonderful. till the point that i cant describe how good she is. Let me list a example: today after math lect there was gpap tut. So some of our class pp went to the canteen to but some snacks and drinks. gpap is boring. yup. so when we reached the classroom, we were like 5 min late (still reasonable).

So we settled down while she was raving on abt how we were late for 15 min (with reference to her watch). but the clock in the class, which is workg perfectly, shows that we were late for jus 5 min. So she was popping her eyeballs over why we are late for so long. "You all are late for 15 min! the first 3 who came are alrdy late by 10 min! and the rest of the lot are late by 15 min! Come! tell me who is ur teacher! I have the right to report her to the principal! Its a school rule do you know?! She is supposed to released you all 5 min before lessons end! Tell me! ......"

Apparently the school have this new policy that teachers have to release students 5 min earlier to ensure that the next lesson would start promptly. if the students are late and it is due to the previous teacher not releasing the students on time the nxt period teacher have the right to hand the teacher name to the VP for scolding. Blah. totally retarded.

So she continued to raved for abt 5min. Den: "who said you all can sit down?!" (We have to stand to greet her. totally super retarded. Feels like a kindergarten) After we stood up and the rest greeted her, and sat down again, she went on to rave abt one of her previous rep who was always reminding her to end lesson 5min earlier so that they can go to their nxt lesson promptly.

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please! I bet it must that her lessons are simply too boring so the students cant wait for the lesson to end! And please! fix ur watch! She said that the clock in the classroom is faulty/not working properly and her watch is synchronized to the school's chime. BIG L! Then is it supposed to be a miracle when the clock works perfectly fine in other classes? And a huge mircale when the clocks is also synchronized to the school's chime when gpap class ended? and the first 3 are the 3 who is always early and never drag time!

And MT still told us that we are very lucky to get her cus she is very experienced. Wow. I feel so lucky.



Of cus, who can forget Madm B? Actually she is not boring. Jus that she is super ultimate naggy. Yea she nag. One info she can repeat like, min 3 time? So i always almost fall alseep in her class. But that was jus fine, the tut ans are uploaded. When she took over lect, wow, magic. I love B lect as they are interesting, i learn new stuff, fun and sped passed. Yeap thanks to a great lecturer.

But she? nags nags nags. Spend time on stuff that are fully printed in black for us to read. (Lect notes smth hav pages that contains info and smtimes quite impt but can be read and understandable) So she can like waste 15min on one page that is printed (which means no copying of blanks) and droned on to explain. Like i cant understand the words.

The extent of her nagginess? I missed one B lect and the missing pages i need to copy took me... 5 min. And within that 5 min i was also copying down the topics tested for the upcoming test.

So successful. and today she spent one whole hr gng through.. 1 page of lect notes. (kay fine 3 page, 2 and a half fully printed and half a page that requies copying) super interesting. Love her.


Love my JC life. SOOO interesting

WHEE told myself to come blog today.

CHINGAY 2010 was good!

The display was fab. performances was good. Atmosphere was excellent. Dinner provided was okay. team ppl are rather nice. audiences are considered okay. Blah. Got lots of cool stuffs! free heaven & earth drinks and cokes too. GR. nxt yr i oso wan go Chingay. Shitties! We got a date! ^^

Parade 1 i was so high and perped up, i was dancing along to the performers. BLAH. Enjoying myself while helping nice ppl. But parade 2 got some changes in duties, got rather bored since i alrdy knew the show. sort of force myself to be high since being low equals to sleep for me. Gah! but the fireworks are real good. Whee love fireworks.

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Sunday Gathering at JiaYing's was Fabulous! Whee played card games mahjiong and laughed ourselves silly over the d stupid old version streetfighter. Gorged on the super good fried beehoon, courtesy of JY's mom. HAH. So good i cant describe how much i enjoyed myself. Really missed that bunch of Peeps. Lets pls meet up when we all are free kays. pray pray

I guess the nxt gathering would be around June or after As? T.T

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BT is coming and i m slacking away as usual. Rank pt <35 = special programmes. Darn. force me to study sia. *.*

And today was Bugis outg w the SAS and J1s. Except for it being sweltering and stuffy and heavy bags. All was good. the J1s i brought along was rather nice. Maybe i didnt hear their bad mouthing abt me but oh well. hah~


I really need to start studying. Really!

SHALALA HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY TO ALL TOO!

CNY celebration was, half a waste of time since some of the performance are really good while others are.. 0.0 Classrm deco was a total failure since we didnt know when to start or what to start wif so there is nth except for a lousy ghost like pin-up on the notice board when the judges came. totally win the others man. BUT the louhei was fun! taste pretty good too. *.*

den went to plaza sing to catch Valentine Day wif girlfriends but everything was either sold out or there is not enough seats. Blah~ wanted to catch since all the critics have rather good opinion and there are some of my fav actress. T.T

but still managed to had a short get-tgth wif glen glen! whee~

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Today is oso valentine day which is unlucky for the couples! *stick out tongue and wriggle ard* blah blah black sheep nanny nanny boo!

HAHA i m definitely eatg sour grape. X.X (jus kidding.)

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Jus came back frm the 拜年-ing and doing Bio hw now. *claps-claps wif awed look* I m marvelous. totally awesome.

and at the same time tryg to edit my photos frm the various events. Jus gave up cus the stupid Lightroom is too difficult to use. Blah~!

Wonderg to start readg Econs or to continue Bio.

Maybe it's true
That I cant live without you
Maybe two is better than one

Boys Like Girls

Maybe. Not.