Promises and excuses

Its actually really easy to break off something and blame the responsibility on every single moving or non-moving things in the whole entire galaxy and end up feeling nothing

no guilt, no urge to fix the problem no initiative to go apologise or stuff like that.

like heartlessness is a disease. or its a deep rooted gene coded emotion awaken by the advancement in apathy.

sigh.

Just because you think it might happen dosent mean it will happen

Counting down 4 more weeks to final exams! oh god. its like, only 2 months plus since school started? why does the finals comes so quickly? ughh disgusting piece of shit.

i got 3 core and i elect. so just nice one week each. which is not just nice at all. i think i need like another year for my core and one month plus for my elect.

arghh shit. will like really die die diee.

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If i die young

If i die young

bury me in satin

lay me down on a bed of roses

sink me in the river, at dawn

send me away with a word of love song

the sharp knife, of a short life

-The Band Perry

THIS. totally explains all my vulgarities yesterday when i fell down my bed. so i am excused. peace out.

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anyway. ASOS is having a mid season sales now and my sbs lab partner dragged me into the sea of spending money after we did our lab report. -.-

end result. hahaa.

actually got more lor. but i think ran out of stock. most are less than 20SGD. but i got alot. hahaa mostly denim shorts. i need more denim shorts. ughh. and that playsuit! omg its super nice. but then again knowing me, i probably wont wear it and let it rot for ages. but then again again its so pretty i probably will do wadever i can to wear it. hahhaa.

complicated first world problems. people in africa are troubled over their future and whether they will survive tomorrow while here i am enjoying a good life and troubled over how many clothes i should get. oh well.

it totals to around 90SGD. i will be murdered if i get it. but i will suffer from agony if i dont. how how bow bow wow wow.

and i think i will get addicted to shopping at angmoh online shops. man they HAVE MY SIZE! woah. *bows in respect*

:D

Hectic

I fell down my bed today.

supposed to have lab today at 1030. i set my alarm at 930. alarm very unfortunately didnt ring AT ALL. my phone sucks i know. and so, i happily slept till 1130, when i woke up sleepily, retrieved my blanket which had dropped to the floor, checked my phone for the time, and realized its already 1130.

-.-

sprang up in shock and started swearing. swearing from the bottom of my heart. omg. got tangled up in the blanket or jellylegs from the sleep, crashed into floor.

-.-

seriously.

there is a big bruise on my knee now. super pain if you touch. some weird sensation if i dont touch. okay throbbing low level of pain.

but i finished my lab. muahahaa. even though i was late for one and a half hour. call me a genius. come

oh plus i had only one meal today. seafood horfun from the quad (school cafe). damm good. but i am not that hungry now. okay i gobbled down two mini packets of hellopanda and finished up what's left of the packet of prawn crackers. but i am still not very hungry yet. but but going to cook maggie mee now. muahahaa. after that going to sleep. i am a pig. thanks

table in a mess. one lab reports to churn out (half of one and half of another). one pending, another coming tomorrow. life is, relatively busy. good. hee

hmmm

i think i give off a ' stay far away from me' vibe when i clam up and sliently observe everyone in the surrounding environment

plus my disgusting height and 欠揍 face (have it when i dont smile)

do i? i think so you know. cause, actually i am quite okay to talk to. just, naturally awkward.

but i think its quite fast to get closer? i dont know. i form the sense of friendliness with majority

of people in a rather short period of time. hahaa.

or maybe its just me. sigh. annoying

someday it will turn around and bite you in the back

i got two quizzes this week. one intro to bio and one organic chem. just finished the organic chem one this morning. and the bio one is on friday.

i am supposed to study la. tuesday is free all day except the morning quiz. wed is free all day too, except for the consultation in the late afternoon. thu is also a free day. 3 full days of no lessons. can study can get awesome scores right?

NO.

what i did: facebooked. tumblred. constantly refreshing my twitter. reading manga which i have already watched like a thousand times before ( forever skip beat). listening to music from my youtube playlist (adele's someone like you is really awesome). sleep. space out. blog hop.

in essence, everything except studying. -.-

someone should shot me in the head. forever procrastinating. forever. ughh. :/

okay. going to attempt to study.

haha let me sidetrack abit.

went out with lovees on saturday. ate shitload of stuff at the fengshan hawker center in bedok. the food there is mad awesome. our total bill came at 13per pax? Wanton mee, hao jian, fried carrot cake, fried prawn noodles, bbq chicken wings, mad awesome cheese fries, samba stingray etc. cant remember everything we ate. when we finished our stomach were at verge of bursting. seriously unhealthy binging. but super good cause its fabulous food with great company. hee ^^

and after food we walked to bedok point to get desserts. yeah. :p

unanimous funny faces

best photo of the day. pity the group one was blury

Abby! camwhoring on the bus. i love the effects.

okay okay going back to attempt to study liao. heee ><

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THIS OMG &*^%#*^@

omg i cant believe i missed this out omg i should go muder myself arghhh

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i realized it is bad to be following the BSG people on twitter.

cause supposedly to be the closest to them at work but when they go for stuffs its always only the few who are included. the family. then when you see them planning stuff happily without any thoughts of you, naturally you feel sort of neglected. hah. but okay lah. not very sad though. i already know that they are much much closer to together, and of course you will think of the people you are the closest to right? blarhh.

okay shan't think too much. no point torturing myself over something i cannot change. whee~

went out with the szb todayy! i ate so much its so scary -.- and bought super expensive but awesome stuffs. arghh agony to be seeing things but unable to buy them because i have no ka-ching. blahh

first time i bought something from forever21. omg the most gorgeous jacket ever. ever. the colour is like, super awesome. whee~ i am so attention seeking nowadays hahhaa. and the bloody pretty pullover that cost a bomb. T.T the days when you wish money will really drop from the sky. haiz. going to keep them in hall until the fateful day i move everything back home. hah. my mom will never find out hahahaha (i think)

bunk of the camwhore photos with the apple people. hahaha. i only took photos of the food. oh well. :p

and i just realized that my timetable changed from a four day week to a three day week. which sort of sucks. cause i end later on friday. ughh. this means i will feel more and more guilty for not making myself study. oh my mother of goodness rawrr.

okay i need to be more disciplined. discipline, stop playing hide and seek with me okay? concentration, please stay through with me. loves forever. distraction, please break up with me and stay a million miles away. thank you very much.

sigh. exams coming. my brain is empty