GAH!

wad a lovely word.


BT today. Econs was, erh, okay i guess? Largely crapped through the questions. Plenty of 4marks qns set purposely to kill us. Gr. Lost 8marks. But hopefully they can be trade over by my essay. keke.

Bio is the love. <3 totally fabulous. Love it to the max. Woah. I am going to treat everyone sakae sushi if i pass. See how optimistic i am? totally confident of passing.

Chem tmr. going to float through and crapped every single rubbish present in my head. useless head. GAH!

2 more days to forever. I want my break! ^^

delightful mood. anticipating the outing.


oh btw i was just kiddg about the treat. Just kidding.

WOO IT RAINED SO HARD TODAY!!

straight pouring from the morning. HAHA. exaggerated but oh wadever! the feeling is so great! cool air excellent weather no sun no pe no stuffy classroom! best day ever since like months ago. Yeah its great because our reservoir has shockingly low level of water, the weather is stuffy and hot, the forests (or big bushes) at tampines are burning merrily causing smok around the area BUT the best part about raining is actually mostly because I LOVE THE RAIN!

muahaha~ typical example of a selfish apathetic Singaporean youth. heck la. I am kind to most people, including strangers who are nice to me. ^^ and only evil and mean when it comes to people that i dislike. (though i don't know why i dislike them. gah)

GP BT is round the corner, jus a few steps away but I did not study any single thing that is related to GP. having the " also going to fail liao study for what?" mentality. teehee.

having M.T as GP tutor now (temporary, heard that A.T fractured one of her body part), very scary, slightly random, and having a similar characteristic that all GP teacher possesses, which is being boring (Claim). How do i prove my point? I was nodding off today during GP while he was going on and on about doing AQ (Support). Of course, it could be argued that my example cum support is jus an individual experience and could be classified as 'freak incident', but how do you explain jy and qx having the same experience as me? So i concluded that my support is valid and absolutely convincing. ^^v

Just kidding. He was quite good. provided alot of points and tips that is typical of how anyone would tell you about doing AQ well. But since its about doing AQ well i supposed it has to be the same. nevertheless, i took down alot of notes, tried to understand what he was talking about while trying my best not to fall asleep. (I am a good and obedient student) I hoped i really took in what he had said because i am very sure that i spaced out for one moment while he was talking about pulling different points from different authors and compare contrast them. (taken from chelsea's notes) totally spaced out while looking at him.

But u cannot blame me for spacing out because during a "Know more about your learning style" workshop during secondary school, we got to know about our learning style. I got VKA. which means that i uses visual and kinesthetic more that audio. SO i learn better by seeing and doing. VKA spaces out during long talks (i saved the spacing out part and went straight to sleep, but this is true information from the course and i don't know why i remembered it till now) cannot remember audio instruction well. (i crapped this out but this absolutely true, u have to write down to remind me. if not i will forget about it after like... 5 min?) find it hard to sit still for long hours as they are distracted by their needs for exploration (from the net and applies to me as well) and so on and so forth. So i think that pretty much explains why i love practicals and good lecturers. they make lessons less boring and less sleep-inducing.

and i just realized that i have diverted long from what i was originally saying. But the main point is, yeah hoped i absorbed what M.T said and hopefully i can use it in the exams. Nice and simple.

most amazingly i am no longer addicted to facebook. from "must go everyday" to "go when i m free". gives me much more time to do my own stuff, like daydreaming about getting straight As for A level and reading storybooks. HAH!!

from this blog post, and using your powerful inferring skills, i bet you can infer my present mood.

YEAP. bored but happy. thats why i am crapping myself out, trying my best to write in proper English and not commit any grammar mistakes.

but i bet i committed alot of grammar mistakes and my language sucks. totally. blah gah mah. i cannot even spell grammar properly. thank god blogger has a word check. if not i will be throwing my face while blogging and people will be laughing their ass off reading my ridiculous spellings.


and now wicked is the new word of the day

Sometimes i tink i m too blessed for my own good. till the very point that i forgot to be grateful for everyone that is beside me and giving me the reason to continue to work hard for life. Lost in the wonderful fairytale i spun to myself that this is going to last till forever. So when reality hits me, the magnitude of the shock is jus, indescribable. And that old weakling crouch deep beneath quietly crawls out and pushes everything else back inside me. So the cheerfulness and happy-go-lucky character and optimism dat masked me for wad seems like eternity slips off and somehow nothing else is right. I m too hyper now, its irritating and i m too low later, its still irritating. scolding ppl for wad i thought is right of me and regretting a second later. everything dat i display and say, nothing is processed through my useless brain. Curious abt plenty of things but never had the nerve to ask. treading on ice even wif my 'best friends', not knowing if acting like this is right, or jus being myself would be fine. knowing that i m unlike but still acting like the whole world is my best friend. i hate to mask myself but, everyone demands smth frm ppl beside them. Dat facade i build upon myself is the huiying dat they are familiar and can befriend. so wad abt the me dat is jus me and nothing else? the present huiying is build from past experiences of betrayal and hurt. modelled after ppl who are well-liked and sociable.

So is it jus me? or me? how would u react if a mouldy depressed heck-cared selfish inconsiderate huiying replace the happy cheerful smiling optimistic huiying as the huiying u know? and in actual fact her acting is so good that nobody can see the real her? would u still be her friend? yeah like how u are treating her now? if its me, i wouldn't. I dun like the present huiying but i dun wan the past huiying oso. too weak and pushy and gullible. but if i change myself, wad can i change to? jus another model of someone else who is likeable and cheerful and seems to never worry abt anything because of her capability and ability.

I hate to emo here. its supposed to be a happy blog.

WHEE outing wif pearlyn and lynn was fun~!

Went to watch "Valentine's Day"at Lido Orchard. It was very funny! Blah blah blah. Finally got to watch it after like, erm, weeks after. Hee. Had a great time listening to their super hilarious Red-cross experience while finally eatg mcspicy. ^v^ happy happy

And Cross country was, Hot. Stuffy. Boring. Blah. Spammed pics as usual and i m dreadg the time when i have to delete ugly and pick out better ones. Gah! And stll hav to edit pic for Zoom In. Gah Gah Gah.

Shall pon computer till BT is over. >.<